So I don’t really know why I’m feeling like I’m feeling, I wish I did.  Since this past Sunday, I have been in a terribly foul mood and oh just so angry.  I have lots of busy “head talk” going on and that is never good.  My poor Michael, he just can’t seem to do or say anything right this week.  I wish I knew why.

I really expected this week to be a beginning.  I recently signed up for an online Bible Study hosted by the Proverbs 31 Ministry – Proverbs31.org –  It is a bible study on the book “What Happens When Women Say Yes To God” by Lysa TerKeurst.

    

The pearls of wisdom in this book are really wonderful… 

“We have become so familiar with God, yet so unaware of Him.” (Page 14)

“But we will never experience the radical blessings God has in store for us without radical obedience.” (page 18)

Again, like I said… even the first chapter of this book has blessed me.  Along with that the wisdom that I receive from my little “Jesus Calling” devotional that I picked up last week.  Well my heart has been so full.  So why the crazies???  I don’t know.

Last night I sat down and reread for the “umpteenth” time the first Chapter of the Bible Study Book.  And then I sat with pen and paper with my little devotional book and tried to see what God is saying to me.

From my notebook:

July 29: (the day I bought the little devotional)

“Come to me continually, I am meant to be the Center of your consciousness, the Anchor of your soul.”

1.  You are my center
2.  You are my anchor

Heb 6:19 “We have this hope as an anchor for the soul, firm and secure” (NIV)

Amp Bible: Heb 6:18-19
“… we who have fled [to Him] for refuge might have mighty indwelling strength and strong encouragement to grasp and hold fast the hope appointed for us and set before [us].

 [Now] we have this [hope] as a sure and steadfast anchor of the soul [it cannot slip and it cannot break down under whoever steps out upon it—a hope] that reaches farther and enters into [the very certainty of the Presence] within the veil

Behind the veil, only the High priest can enter and bring the sins of everyone.  He was anchored in case he was struck down in there.  Jesus was never anchored to this world, but I am anchored to Him.  I can not be destroyed, no matter who steps on me.

Interesting that the scripture attached to the July 29 devotional is: 

Matthew 22:37.  “Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.”

The scripture that we are studying in the Bible Study this week is:

Deuteronomy 6:5. “Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength”

July 31 – “Trust me in the depths of your being.  It is there that I live in constant communication with you.  When You feel flustered and frazzled on the outside do not get upset with yourself… I am with you at ALL times, encouraging and supportive rather than condeming… Quiet your mind in My Presence.  then you will be able to hear Me bestowing the resurrection blessing:  Peace be with you”

Quiet my mind so I can hear him, them what is all this crazy head talk??  and why now??  hmmm???

August 1 – Nothing can separate me from God’s love… God’s hope.   “Let this divine assurance trickle through your mnd and into your heart and soul.”

When I feel fearful or anxious – repeat this phrase “Nothing can separate me from Your Love Jesus”

August 2 – Bring Him the sacrifice of my time, my most precious commodity.. few of us take time to sit quietly in His Presence.  “But for those who do, blessings flow like streams of living water.”

August 3 – Watching my words.  “Words have such great power to bless or to wound.”  Negative words don’t just damage someone else, they also damage me.  Be quick to listen, slow to speak and slower to anger.

August 5 – Sit quietly in His presence.  “Make my mind like a still pool of water, ready to receive whatever thoughts I drop into it.  Rest in my sufficiency”

August 6 – Stop and affirm who I am in Christ.  Calmly bring the matter to Him and leave them in His capable hands.   Stay in touch with Him through thankful, trusting prayers, resting in His sovereign control.  Rejoice in Him.  Exult in the God of my salvation.

August 8 – He speaks to me from the deepest heaven.  I hear him in the depths of my being.  I am blessed to hear Him so directly.  Never take that for granted.  He is training me to cultivate a thankful mind-set.  This is like building my house on a firm rock.  where life’s storms cannot shake me.  “As you learn these lessons, you are to teach them to others.  I will open up the way before you, one step at a time”

I do have to say that once I strung all of this together late last night…  I feel better.  I did get finally get a good night sleep.  I still don’t know why I have a bit of the grumpies,  I just do.  But what I do know is that God has orchestrated this week.  Just as He will orchestrate next week, and the week after that.  So wherever the crabbies have come from…  well they can just go right back there.  I don’t want to say that everything that goes wrong is the work of the devil.  Sure I believe that he can manipulate things around us.  But I just can’t blame everything on him.  There are times that a bad week is just a bad week… and there are times when no matter what you say or do, the devil is going to have a grand ole time messing with ya.  So I’m not sure which it is this week.   I’ll just do what he told me to do just the other day….  I think I’ll   ….    Stay in touch with Him through thankful, trusting prayers, resting in His sovereign control.  Rejoice in Him.  Exult in the God of my salvation.