From:  Jesus Calling by Sarah Young – page 296

“You have been on a long, uphill journey, and your energy is almost spent.  Though you have faltered at times, you have not let go of My hand.  I am pleased with your desire to stay close to Me.  There is one thing, however, that displeases Me: your tendency to complain.  You may talk to Me as much as you like about the difficulty of the path we are following.  I understand better than anyone else the stresses and strains that have afflicted you.  You can ventilate safely to Me, because talking with Me tempers your thoughts and helps you see things from My perspective.

Complaining to others is another matter altogether.  It opens the door to deadly sins such as self-pity and rage.  Whenever you are temped to grumble, come to Me and talk it out  As you open up to Me, I will put My thoughts in your mind and My song in your heart.”

Thank you Lord for this message today.  It has been a very long and tiring battle and yes, I am just so tried.  Yes, I have been so angry for a few months now.  I can try to justify my awful behavior all day long, but truly I don’t have a single good reason for my mouth.   

How is it that I can praise Your name one minute and go into a total meltdown the next?  That makes no sense. There is something wrong…  My pride has gotten in the way and I am trying to do this life on my own.  But I was never meant to do that.  When I gave my life to you, I gave all of it.  I guess I have forgotten that.  Father, thank you for this reminder today; fill me with patience for those times where I want to vent.  Lord , bind my mouth if anything mean or angry or hurtful or nasty is about to come out.  Father… forgive me and keep me humble.  

 

Prayer of Saint Francis

Lord, make me an instrument of Your peace;

Where there is hatred, let me sow love;

Where there is injury, pardon;

Where there is error, the truth;

Where there is doubt, the faith;

Where there is despair, hope;

Where there is darkness, light;

And where there is sadness, joy.

O Divine Master, Grant that I may not so much seek

To be consoled, as to console;

To be understood, as to understand;

To be loved as to love.

For it is in giving that we receive;

It is in pardoning that we are pardoned;

And it is in dying that we are born to eternal life