It’s been a couple of months since I’ve posted a single word on this Blog. Why would be a good question for me to ask myself. Because I’m lazy? No, I get lots and lots done every day. I’m always on the move, always doing something.
I really had to take a good look at what was wasting my time each day. It’s really quite simple… I’m wasting my time watching stupid television shows that have no redeeming or eternal value. I’m wasting my time clicking away on stupid games on Facebook… again no redeeming or eternal value.
So why do I do it?
I really didn’t give it a thought until this week. I realized that I hadn’t spent any time at all in quite a few days in prayer or reading or study. Somehow I allowed myself to get distracted. I won’t blame anyone but me. I am the one that doesn’t turn off the television. I’m the one that keeps coming back to the keyboard to see if enough time has elapsed to “gain another life” so that I can try to conquer that next Candy Crush level.
What was I thinking? That’s the problem. I wasn’t thinking… just going along in my day.
I think what bothers me most is the little time that I actually spent in prayer and in the Word. I would never ignore my best friend like that… yet… I ignore my MOST important relationship ever. I won’t beat myself up on that… though I could for sure.
So how do I change my behavior? I’m not really sure.
I could mark it on my calendar… since my work and my life revolve around that calendar. But I don’t think that would work.
I could put it on my daily to-do list…
Really??? It’s not like I don’t have a separate area set off just for me. A place where I have my books and my bible right there. A great comfortable chair… plenty of light.
Why do I have to put it on a list or a calendar? What am I missing in my relationship with my Savior? Where did the thirst and hunger go?
God has blessed me with a most amazing life. I’ve had some wonderful “ups” and some horrendous “downs”. HE allowed everything to happen in my life. HE gave me the desire to share my story… yet I don’t do it… and that makes me sad.
Can I make a promise that I will be faithful every day from this day forward to spend time with my KING? Sure I can promise anything. But can I live it? Dunno… but by HIS grace I will learn to recoginize my time wasters. I pray that HIS Holy Spirit will nudge me when I am wasting my hours on mindless activities that hold no redeeming value.